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[sketchthepast]

Tomoko has been having trouble sleeping since what happened at the apartment a few nights ago, she keeps telling me that those scary dragons are chasing her in her dreams.
This place isn't safe, it feels like nowhere is right now.

Then I hear that Juudai died during that chaos... I don't know anymore than that, I haven't dared to ask, but he was such a sweet boy, he didn't deserve his life being taken away.
This must be hard on all this friends, but especially hard on his girlfriend...
... I know what it's like to have someone you truly love suddenly disappear from your life.

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[isdragonlady.livejournal.com]

Mmm... feels like a star in the sky blinked out of existence.

Private to Sayuri

[nottomorrowgirl.livejournal.com]

....you do?

Re: Private to Sayuri

[sketchthepast.livejournal.com]

Yes, I don't talk about it much, even now it's still hard, but...
...about a year and a half ago, I lost my husband. He was in a car acctident.

He wasn't just my husband, but my best friend too. We did everything together and I felt like I could talk to him about anything.
There isn't a day that goes by where I don't think of him and wish he was still with me.

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[nottomorrowgirl.livejournal.com]

...has it...gotten any easier...?

Re: Private to Sayuri

[sketchthepast.livejournal.com]

In time... you learn to carry on without them, but... there's always been a feeling like a part of me is missing, something I can't get back. Some days can be easier or harder than others, but you have a lot of supportive friends... and they'll help you through it.

I know you probably feel like you have to be strong for them, since they're just as upset right now. I felt I had to be strong for my daughter and pretend like everything was okay, but... if you ever feel like you need to cry, just cry. It helps and it's better than keeping everything in.
Talking helps to, even if you think what you want to say sounds silly... it really does help.
I'll be happy to listen if you ever want to just come over and talk.

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[nottomorrowgirl.livejournal.com]

I just....I can't...I can't even think about being without him...it feels like he's always been there, right when I needed him, every day...until now.

...it feels like Juudai brought us together...he was the one that always held everything up...I...I don't want all of us to break apart...

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[sketchthepast.livejournal.com]

I know... but... I don't think you will all break apart. Because he'll still hold you all together, even if he's not there. Because you all share memories of him and will help keep those memories alive.